Today is 28
Dec 2014. Christmas has come and
gone. The year has come to a close.
This year
has not been a great year to me. Just
before Christmas, on 17 Dec, I received news that my friend Terrence Thomas
passed away. He was younger than me. Together with the demise of my eldest sister,
my mother, my father and my father-in-law, the past 3 years was a painful time
of breaking bond and some regrets. I still
dream of my parents almost every week.
Perhaps it
is part of the life cycle that we all have to go through. At my age, it may be natural to see more and
more people leaving.
I too
understand that to live, we should not think too much about death, and after
every incidence of death around us, we need to close the subject and move on
quickly.
But it is
easier say than done.
Christmas is
a time when I remind myself of Christ’s incarnate and His purpose to come die
on the cross for me. 'Silent Night' was
the most beautiful carol ever, and it romanticize the love of God. As I knelt before the cross this Christmas, I
thank God for life, for His blessings, the love of people around me, and the
love of people departed from me. I seek
forgiven for my failures to live up to God asked of me, just as I had failed to live up to my
departed parents' expectation from me.
It has been
an emotional time for me. Thank you for
reading this blog entry.