So many things happened in the last 2 weeks.
My father passed away on Saturday 31 May 2014. I am still trying to make sense of what had happened. I am still terribly sad. God did not allow me the joy of witnessing my father's salvation. My father did not accept Christ before he died. I had been praying for my both my parents' salvation for thirty over years...yet they did not recognize Christ at their moment of death. I could only ask God to give them the grace to recognize Christ after they entered the next world.
Then on Wednesday 2 July 2014, my father-in-law passed away. He had embraced Catholicism. After being baptized and received the 'Last Rites' while in hospital a few years ago, God let him lived another 4 years. I am confident he died a Christian. Alleluia!
The last 4 deaths -- first my eldest sister, then my mother, then my father and now my father-in-law, all within 26 months, had really affected me emotionally. The thoughts of life, the brevity of life, and what is important in life, are constantly churning in my mind, even in my sleep.
I have an emotional disposition. But the irony is that I do not show emotion on my face. I am sentimental to the core. Sometimes I do not even understand my own emotion.
During the Sunday morning church service today, the pastor preached about praise, the power of praise. Yes, I need to praise God for what had taken place -- that my father died a peaceful and happy man, confident that he was returning to the place where all his ancestors went before him.
I like to cling on to the hope that when my father entered the next world, God would grant him the grace to recognize Christ, and to grant him a room in the house of God forever.
God will still answer my prayer - because He died on the cross and rose again for me... And I have pleaded with Him for thirty over years.
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